Mexican elites y los gringos

So, I am in Mexico studying and I am molestada con algo...
I looked forward to being in Mexico - on my turf in a way - after being a second class citizen in grad school in the U.S. - In law/grad school in the U.S., we Chicanas/Mexicanas have to deal with arrogant Whites that look down on us and think we don't deserve to be in law school - assume we got in on affirmative action while ignoring the White privilege and class privilege that got them in - so anyway, I thought in Mexico I wouldn't have to live under this but it turns out that in Mexico - we are third class citizens. The Mexican elite and gringo professors that run the programs made sure to let us know that we Mexican-Americans have the lowest place in the hierarchy. The Mexican elites and their gringo counterparts chum it up and have let us know that in Mexico "people of Mexican heritage from the US are seen as traitors" and we are resented for supposedly "trying to tell them how to do things" - wait! isn't that the ugly american (anglo) that travels abroad and tells others how they should live? Other Chicana students told me their lack of knowledge of the area or pocha spanish is responded to with "que pena!" The anglo students haven't been pointed out in these ways - why are they pointing us out this way? Why are the US anglo professors able to put us in this 3rd class citizen level within our group and get away with it just cuz we are in Mexico? Then they take off to fancy dinners with the Mexican elites.

This trip was supposed to be a meaningful experience for me and my family because my mother left her pueblo in shame and struggled so - now I was able to come back here and represent my family with honor and some level of achievement - but none of that matters or is recognized because the elites here look down on us and don't care to take the time to see us beyond third class citizens - they treat us with contempt and have no interest in lowering themselves to know us - Mexicans from the U.S.
Perhaps... the lesson is that while my mother taught be to be so concerned with returning to Mexico and gaining respect for our family... now I can ask why? why care so much about these arrogant elitist mean spirited people? why should we care what these people think? I am not going to put in any effort to try to convince them of anything - let them think of us as poor and lower class etc... this family complejo stops here with me. I don't want to be a part of their world - the world my mother aspired to belong to. It just bothers me that the anglo students that already looked down on us at our home schools in the US now see that even Mexicans look down on us. Their own racism seems more okay to them - since we have noone to defend us - shouldn't they have come to Mexico and seen all of the wonderful things about our Mexicaness?? Wasn't this an opportunity for them to see us in a different light? Mexicanos here could have received us differently and given us some credibility and respect in front of our US counterparts - instead they showed them that we are despised here to - and receive less respect than any one else in our program. what a disappointment.